Introduce yourself

[Jimfix44]

MWM 67. out to wife but she wasn’t too happy.
Retired and jumped over here from Lit. Hoping to find a few buds for regular OL fun and friendship

[Writer_FM]

Hi all. I'm a mwm, age 52, and live in Pennsylvania. Sex at home is becoming less and less frequent. I'm closeted bi-curious and closeted crossdresser. I have some dresses, skirts, tops, bras, thongs, stockings and heels. Hoping to get a wig soon. My wife doesn't know about any of that and would not approve. I'm interested in exploring my bi side and want to give and receive. Would love to explore with another crossdresser but that is not required.

Thanks to those who created this forum for us.

[wag_that_tail86]

Hi, closeted MWM. Bicurious but no real-life experience, although the urge gets stronger all the time.
I love gay porn, gay erotica, trans porn and straight porn too.
I love the outdoors but I also like reading on a quiet afternoon.
My lingerie collection continues to grow, I find wearing sexy underwear or stockings an incredible turn on. I think more men should learn to embrace their own femininity!

Welcome. Nothing beats a real-life experience... except remaining married, if you're happy. I have some curiosity as to why cross-dressing is becoming so popular, among mature men. I'll probably start a thread asking this question.

I can't speak for others, but I'm at a point where I want to and have to live my life fully. I'd like to say that I'm not concerned what others may think, but the truth is I'm not a CD full time, so still closeted about that too. That said, I love the look and feel of lingerie and how I look wearing it. That's all it comes down to, we should do what feels good if it doesn't do any harm.

[StarroftheNite]

Hi,

I'm Starr. I live in the northeastern Ohio/western Pennsylvania area, about halfways between Cleveland and Pittsburgh. I've spent a good bit of time in New York City and southern California on business, also.

I'm a crossdresser and male to female transgender woman. I also self-identify as androgynous and pansexual. I'm in my sixties now, and up until my mid-thirties I was a very straight guy, high school and college athlete, infantry officer,grad school, professional, father, and sandlot baseball coach, up until the 1990's, when I was having issues with my wife, and got into the habit of late night web surfing. I was on the early computer and clicked onto the page of a crossdresser. She wasn't super-feminized, just an unusually pretty male wearing makeup, a wig, heels, and an androgynous body. There are so many fabulously pretty transgender models and porn stars on the internet nowadays that this girl wouldn't even be noticed, but in that era her photos and text transfixed me, and I became obsessed with transgender women. As stated, my wife and I were having issues, and she was living her life hanging-out with her girlfriends, and I pursued my obsession to the point where, in the role of Male Admirer, I was dateing and having sex with transgender girls. Eventually, I became curious about whether I would be pretty and sexy as a girl, and dipped my toe in the water by acquiring a wig, a bunch of makeup, and female clothes. I began dressing for myself at home, and developed the very typical transgender girl's habit of taking lots of photos of myself. nude and clothed. I also let my hair grow longer, shaved most of my body hair, and started to change my workouts at the gym so that I was more involved with sculpting my body to emphasize a thinner waist and fuller buttocks. There is a name for this process, "The Drift," which describes a slow movement towards feminization. The transgender women I was dating all seemed to enjoy being fucked by me as much or more than I was enjoying my half of the activity, and naturally I became curious, and that led to dildos and butt plugs and toys, which in turn helped me discover what the ladies were enjoying. All in all, it took me about three to four years from the initial discovery of the world of transgender women on the early internet to the point where I had my first sex date where I sucked a man''s cock and let him fuck me. I expected it to be a transcendental experience and it was! It made me realize what I am, and helped set me on a journey to a place where I have accepted myself, and have tried to go ahead with life and not look back. No regrets, no retreat, no surrender.

I did get divorced, and have been living alone, albeit with frequent contact with people in my straight life, for twenty plus years. The single status has been good for me, and I've done a lot of crazy things, have had a lot of fun, and have lived through a few scary times, too. I've never come out to family, friends, or business associates because of financial considerations primarily. I am getting to the age where I'm considering retirement and moving to someplace where I can live full-time as a woman among people who don't know the masculine side of me, and wouldn't care even if they did. I had been thinking Florida, but the anti-LGTBQ politics there have made me reconsider.

Sexually, because that's what this forum is about, I've had relations with probably around fifty men since the first experience. I have been picky, and have probably had at least as many guys whom I've met and chatted-up, and then shaken hands with them and walked away. I acceept that men tend to objectify women, but a depressing number of fiftyish-sixtyish males look at trans-women as something akin to a thrill ride at Cedar Point! Not going to happen with me, sweetie! Anyway, moving on, all of the dieting and exercising paid off, and I got down to 150 pounds on a 5-11 frame, and even at my age still look attractive when I'm freshly shaved, made-up, and get my hair extensions and my mid-back natural pony tail combed properly together. (Guys love to pull the pony tail and get aggressive when they're riding me from behind) Many of the men with whom I've had sex were one night stands, but most were local people with whom I've had 2-3-4-5 trysts, and a select few are in the FWB//fuck-buddy category. I haven't had sex witth a woman for almost that entire time since my first man, and here's the funny thing: In my lifetime I've never had a true gay sex encounter. Every time I've been intimate with a person with a penis either one or both of us were presenting as a transgender female. That fact notwithstanding, I am fascinated by cocks, and love to watch videos and slide shows of engorged penises. I must admit that I'm horny as the dickens right now, because I had very little social life during the covid pandemic, and things are still pretty slow in a lot of the alternate bars and clubs in this area.

If anyone on the forum has gone through a similar process, or considered it, hit me up if you'd like to chat or correspond.

Hugs and Kisses to all!

[Don Williams]

What a great introduction, Starrofthenight! Welcum!

[Don Williams]

I have been picky, and have probably had at least as many guys whom I've met and chatted-up, and then shaken hands with them and walked away. I acceept that men tend to objectify women, but a depressing number of fiftyish-sixtyish males look at trans-women as something akin to a thrill ride at Cedar Point! Not going to happen with me, sweetie!

I just wanted to comment, here, because I may fall into that category, just a bit.

In defense of middle-aged men who are fascinated with and possess a STRONG sexual attraction to trans (specifically) women:
I find that trans women, who really work to present as feminine, tend to look more "feminine" and alluring than many cis women, because they pay attention to every detail, in their appearance. If like most of us, in this group, one has developed an appreciation for cock, but maintains an attraction to cis women, PHYSICALLY, you really are (in my mind) "the best of both worlds. Additionally, if my sexual experiences with cis men are any indication, adding the "feminine" into the equation would surely indicate that you might just be a "thrill ride."

As a "BBC" (I really HATE the term - but that's how I'm viewed, among the men on the sites - and every white girl I've ever met - Same with "daddy." So be it. Somebody's gotta do it.), I have lived my entire life with a degree of fetishization, as do blondes, girls with big asses, big tits, and ginger carpet that matches the drapes. Those traits - all fetishes, to some degree - serve to do no more than open doors - the woman who became my wife was curious. If the goal is sex, the fetish (at least for me) is a feature. If the goal is a relationship, a focus on the fetish is something of a let-down.

I REALLY want to have sex with a beautiful, "passing" trans woman. I want to take her out on a date, then take her home, then have the ride of my life, but I cannot EVER have a relationship with her, because I'll be married to the love of my life until one of us drops. If I outlive my wife, then the rules will change. Until then, the only option for me is "thrill ride."

To put the cherry on top of this, Cedar Point Park is still on my bucket list. I'm going to ride ever coaster, in that sumbitch! Every time I drive through Sandusky, I want to get off (the highway). When my grandson is 10 (July 2024) I'm ticking that one off. Wanna be my second tick?

[StarroftheNite]

Hi Don,

Thanks for the thoughtful response to my comments. Those were not aimed at people such as you, but I've had some disconcerting chats with older men who unapologetically looked at me as just a warm place to stick their penis so they could, as you say, tick-off an item on their bucket list, and those experiences are memorable in the wrong way. I appreciate that there are many middle-aged and older men who are boorish simply because few males of any demographic had a chance to interact with a transgender woman due to the societal taboos in the late twentieth century. Also, to be honest, I'm pretty fucked-up emotionally, and am probably not in my right mind half the time to deal with folks who are not equipped by their life experiences to be empathetic with my situation. I acknowledge the possibility I'm too harsh in my literary treatment of them. Mea culpa! I also appreciate that there are a lot of good men who have legitimate, possibly genetic, psychological needs as well as physical desire for a transgender woman, and I certainly don't begrudge them their curiosity. As noted in my Introduction comments, my initial reaction to the transgender girl on the internet was both emotional and visceral.

I understand that African-American males have similar experiences with white males (and the occasional predatory white female) who look at them as sex objects and not human beings.

I envy your grandson the opportunity to have his first visit to Cedar Point on his tenth birthday! It will be something that he will remember for his entire life.

[Don Williams]

...(and the occasional predatory white female) who look at them as sex objects and not human beings.

Occasional? That was the first thing my wife's sisters asked about. I feel bad for the guys who aren't the stereotype.

I am cognizant of the emotional aspect of being trans, and it makes sense. My daughter actually dated a MTF trans girl, a few years back. She was not overtly sexual and, even with my daughter, because of the dysmorphia regarding her genitals - and the effects of the hormones, sex was an issue. Add to that the struggle she had with her parents and her peers, and you had a fragile bundle of nerves, with a petite figure and a gentle heart.

I was just pointing out that, in almost any attraction, there is a degree of fetishization. That's just natural.

Let's face it. The mainstreaming of trans porn and overtly sexual trans women, on social media, doesn't make things easier. It sure does make trans women more alluring, though.

[Don Williams]

Admittedly, the "male" side of me really wanted to see her pre-surgery tits. They looked so nice, under her shirt. I just love small tits.

[Don Williams]

You know, StarroftheNite, now, I really want to see a picture. Not gonna lie.