What happened to my sexlife?

[PeterWatson]

My wife has never been interested in sex. It was always an obligation and she is a clean freak so the idea of getting 'dirty' with saliva or semen was never appealing. We had a decent sex life for a while when we were very young. As long as she had nice tits and let me eat her out, I was satisfied, but as the years went on, I started to find it difficult to cum while fucking her and I had to imaging I was fucking some other woman or man while lying on top of her with my eyes closed. We had a hard time getting pregnant so watching her body temperature and fucking on a schedule like it was a requirement rather than something spontaneous didn't help things get better.

Eventually, I spent more time masturbating and less time having sex with her and she was fine with that. Now we don't have any sex and I spend my time doing this. When I was in my twenties, I was only interested in straight sex. The internet exposed me to many varieties of sex. I saw things that I had never seen before. There were no rules back then and every variation of sex was avaiaable to tempt you. Over time, you find those things that excite you and those that don't and you start expanding your horizons. I found that the more I watched a girl sucking a cock, the more I started wondering what it would be like to be the girl in the video and feel that cock in my hand and my mouth. That lead to the desire to pursue the curiosity and to my first real experiences with cock. And then tgirls. Well, I don't know how many times I have cum for Bailey Jay and ladyboys. There is so much to discover and to try, but opportunities are limited and dissappearing rapidly. I have been with two tgirls prostitutes (and a few regular protitutes). One amazing tgirl and one blah. Another story to tell.

Before I lose the abilty to cum altogether, I want to get as many orgasms under my belt as I can. It gets harder to find things that really stimulate me now because I am older, I have seen a lot of porn, and I have my erectile issues.

Too bad there isn't a pill that can restore your sex drive and function to where you were when you were 30 years old. I tried viagara a couple of times long ago but how do you get that now without having to explain to your wife what you are doing. I have an old bottle of poppers that is empty, but it still smells of poppers and sometimes when masturbating, I sniff from the empty bottle. It does not give me a rush because the bottle is empty, but the smell brings me back like a perfume you can't forget to those days of pushing a dildo up my ass and jerking to porn that I had never seen before. Orgasms where you thought your heart would explode.

I think my wife doesn't even know I still masturbate. Its just hard to have a sexlife or acquire toys or aids without her knowing and if she knew, the dissapproval would be deadly and continuous, so I live a secret life regarding sex. There are lots of guys on doublelist who would gladly meet for quick and dirty sex, but I don't want to spend my remaining years fighting STDs or having some evil person extorting money from me, or some crazy showing up at my house demanding something of me. As such, I will stay safe until I meet someone sane, if ever.

[BrokenQuill]

While my situation isnt quite the same as yours, I do understand. Like you Peter, when I was first married, i had a good sex life, but real life and responsibilities soon got in the way and my wife ended up being her mothers carer. This shifted our focus for several years until her mother passed away. During that time I started to secretly look at porn whilst I was left at home and looking after my stepdaughter.

After mother in law died, we decided to move away from the hustle and bustle of city life into a countryside environment. Whilst the move has been a positive thing, our relatonship has changed to be much more of a friendship, especially as the menopause hit my wife.

I have always had bisexual tendancies and have on occasion acted upon them, but where I live now is quite insular, so most people know other familes business. Theres no way that I would risk everything for a quick blowjob these days, but the urge is very much in the forefront of my mind most days. Luckily I can work from home and satisfy my curiosity on the 'net. And long showers allow me some relief.

[Uncut1969]

When we first got married all was good no problems! Now 20years later I get mad and tell her I need sex more and she doesn’ care she sees me masterbating often ! She said she has menopause I will get sex maybe once ever 2-3 months so I got on lit and started to read and get curious! Started to chat with like minded men and remembered back when I was a teen and me and my best friend and I would stroke each others cock to completion ! Now talking to men is easier more open and hope to experience a fwb to grow with ! I honestly think wife wouldn’t care so she wouldn’t have to do it ! It’s like a choir to her !

[Hilton1958]

When we first got married all was good no problems! Now 20years later I get mad and tell her I need sex more and she doesn’ care she sees me masterbating often ! She said she has menopause I will get sex maybe once ever 2-3 months so I got on lit and started to read and get curious! Started to chat with like minded men and remembered back when I was a teen and me and my best friend and I would stroke each others cock to completion ! Now talking to men is easier more open and hope to experience a fwb to grow with ! I honestly think wife wouldn’t care so she wouldn’t have to do it ! It’s like a choir to her !

In everybody's stories I see some similarities to my own. I began chatting with men on Lit simply because they were more open to chatting and not so stand offish as most of the women there, to be honest I have now lost interest in chatting with the Lit women, the men are much more fun and I have slowly, over the course of a few years, become very keen on interacting sexually with men and/or shemales.

[PeterWatson]

I wonder how many of the women on lit are actually men posing as female so that they can live out life as a female in that environment. I understand the attraction to doing this. If you have ever fantasized about being a woman and sexually and socially interacting with men, then taking on a female persona and doing it 100% on lit is probably a lot of fun.

I have not done it, but the idea appeals to me and it would not bother me if the female I was talking to was actaully a male if the illusion was maintained 100% of the time and he was really convincing. It would be like having sex with a cross dresser. The more realistic she looks, the hotter it is, at least, for me.

[Hilton1958]

I wonder how many of the women on lit are actually men posing as female so that they can live out life as a female in that environment. I understand the attraction to doing this. If you have ever fantasized about being a woman and sexually and socially interacting with men, then taking on a female persona and doing it 100% on lit is probably a lot of fun.

I have not done it, but the idea appeals to me and it would not bother me if the female I was talking to was actaully a male if the illusion was maintained 100% of the time and he was really convincing. It would be like having sex with a cross dresser. The more realistic she looks, the hotter it is, at least, for me.

Indeed I suspect that many Lit women are actually men posing as women, as to what percentage that may be, is anybody's guess, but definitely not all of them. I think one can take it as a given, that on any sex site/forum men are always going to outnumber women by a large margin.